welcome to my delusions!

I keep finding really good webnovels, and then the translator drops them, or they only have a few chapters.

I wanted to send a translator some money, but I couldn't use the thing they use. It was a Tea not Kofi, and I got errors when I tried to donate. :(

I like supporting authors and translators, but I get so afraid of messing up. And I'm kind of stupid, and I get confused easily, so a lot of the time I give up. Especially when the sites aren't in English and I can't figure out what I'm meant to do next.

Also, I try to download novels when I can, because I have Calibre set up with optimum reading settings. Blue on Blue/grey with comic sans, because I have difficulty seeing, and focusing on words, and these settings make it easier to read, but it's getting harder and harder to read offline.

So many sites make my eyes hurt, and it's really difficult to read on them. When a site is set up with good settings, I'll read online, but both white and black backgrounds hurt, and sepia gives me an awful headache.

And now there's something I don't understand going on which is making sites lock up and I have to go through a lot of steps to get passwords to read chapters, and discord makes my computer crash, so I feel like crying.

 Hello Dreamwidth, I actually forgot you existed for more than a year. 

On the bright side, posting now feels like I skipped over the nightmarish and apocalyptic year that was 2020. I mean, if I could have skipped it I would have, but that's impossible, and it does not do to dwell on impossibilities that will only serve to depress and not spread joy. Seriously though, what the hell was with 2020. If it wasn't one bad thing it was another. The only difference was it was the whole world living through a global dumpsterfire.

I have been reading so, so, so much new stuff it's unbelievable. At the moment I am desperately waiting for my favourite current novels/manhua/manhwa to be translated, especially Trash of the Count's Family, Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint, Solo Leveling, The S-Classes That I Raised, I Have Medicine, and a few more.

Hopefully when I come back here in the future, these will be translated and I can look back at my past self and laugh. But probably not. I just pray nothing bad happens and they get dropped.

My bag is now covered in badges. Tony's been buying me ones that he says suits me, and I ended up gluing them to my backpack/handbag. All my MDZS ones are front and center, and then the rest of the space is full of weird badges that I actually kind of like. Maybe one day I'll take a picture and add it here. Since I never leave the house (except for doctor/hospital appointments) the badges are in very good condition.

I also have quite a few bunny themed badges and stuff. Tony said to me that until I started buying the MDZS stuff he didn't realise how much I adored bunnies. He knew I loved cats, birds, and deer, but he was surprised to discover I also loved bunnies, and hamsters. Especially bunnies. He bought me a two foot raccoon plushie and gave it to me, because he couldn't find any bunnies in the shop, and that is so damn adorable it stays next to my bedside table, beside the WWX and LWJ bunnies.

Some good things that happened:

♥ NOX emulator is surprising good. I find it so much easier to play Love Nikki. 

♥ PillTime is a lifesaver. I don't have to keep remembering to order my medication and get it delivered.

♥ Flamish's NovelGrabber has made life reading novels so much easier. I can download them, add them to Calibre, and then read them with my reading settings. 

♥ I found some really, really nice instrumental Jazz music on YouTube that lasts between 4-8 hours so I can have some lovely background music while I get stuff done.

♥ I've started playing My Time At Portia. It's fun. Or at least it is fun now with a few mods for easier playtime.

♥ Tony and I have been having date nights with tabletop games, Netflix, and making more of an effort to just spend time together without the computers.

♥ Tony and I have been together for more than twenty years now. It's amazing just thinking about it. We've been together since 1999. 

That's all for now. I never intended to actually post anything, but my previous entry was just too depressing to see as a first entry.

To any strangers, and old friends reading this - hello, I hope you have a nice day, or lovely evening, and I wish you well. Also, have a hug.

~ Jaz

♥♥♥

I've finally decided to import my stuff from LJ to DW. I've seen a lot of people do it, with pretty valid reasons, and quite frankly I haven't posted anything on LJ since 2013, even though I've read on there a whole damn lot.

Here's to the future. --raises empty glass--

I've deleted most of my earlier entries. They were no longer applicable. I almost forgot I even had an account here. It seems like everyone is leaving LiveJournal and moving here instead, and I've been following the people I'm interested in over here now. It's literally been years since I've used this place. I guess maybe it's time to tidy up and maybe redecorate.

Nah. I'll redecorate later. Maybe. I'd prefer blue to green, so at some point I'll have to change it. I'm just not looking forward to messing around. --sigh--

{Take the 100 Things challenge!}

I was being nosy and going through moonofblindness's journal, when I came across her '100 Things' entries, btw, go read them, they're about her DVDs and she's brilliant at this blogging thing and describing them. I really liked the idea of this 100 things challenge, because I've been meaning to make a list of fanfic I adore and always go back to re-read, so while I would recommend them to everyone, I know that most of them won't be your cup of tea, or coffee, or hot chocolate. --laughs--

So, this 100 Things Blogging Challenge is about my 100 favourite fanfics. This is what I can promise you...

I can promise that:

• The fanfics here will range across the spectrum of ratings, from child-friendly to extremely adult.
• Every post will be marked with age appropriate ratings.
• An assortment fandoms will be covered here.
• I get obsessed easily, and you'll probably figure that out by yourself by these entries.

I cannot promise you:

• That the subject matter in every fanfic will be to your liking.
• That you won't come across something NSFW, or which may be triggering or upsetting.
• That you will be interested, entertained, or happy with what I recommend.

In order to make things easier, I will be updating this post with a masterlist of all my 100 Things posts. They will be by author and by fandom. You can find them all under the cut beneath this line.

( Masterlist of 100 Things Blogging Challenge posts )

I intend to have fun with this, and overall it's for me to bring together my favourite fanfics, but I hope you find something you like as well.

Hugs,

~Shi-koi~

EDIT #2: Since I blew up my computer again, I'm back on the laptop, and thus have no patience for mucking about on WordPress when I could use something simpler. So, I've stuck most of my bookmarks into Diigo, which is total awesomesauce and I'm loving it as much as delicious. =^_______^=


Right now it's mostly got Transformers, and Star Trek 2009, and Supernatural, and Sherlock...oh, and some Buffy organised. I really, really need to go through my old bookmarks, but meh. I get distracted by the shiny and end up re-reading the linked fics. Heh.

EDIT #3: I fail at staying organised. I have over a thousand bookmarks (99% of them being fanfics) belonging to dozens of fandoms on diigo now. Most recently, The Mentalist, White Collar, Suits, Assassin's Creed, Prototype and Grimm. --insert deep sigh-- A lot of them haven't been tagged yet because I end up becoming distracted by them and reading instead of tagging.

(EDIT #1 is gone because my Wordpress site vanished. :( Sorry about that.)

I Am A: True Neutral Dwarf Sorcerer (5th Level)


Ability Scores:

Strength-14

Dexterity-13

Constitution-13

Intelligence-16

Wisdom-12

Charisma-14


Alignment:
True Neutral A true neutral character does what seems to be a good idea. He doesn't feel strongly one way or the other when it comes to good vs. evil or law vs. chaos. Most true neutral characters exhibit a lack of conviction or bias rather than a commitment to neutrality. Such a character thinks of good as better than evil after all, he would rather have good neighbors and rulers than evil ones. Still, he's not personally committed to upholding good in any abstract or universal way. Some true neutral characters, on the other hand, commit themselves philosophically to neutrality. They see good, evil, law, and chaos as prejudices and dangerous extremes. They advocate the middle way of neutrality as the best, most balanced road in the long run. True neutral is the best alignment you can be because it means you act naturally, without prejudice or compulsion. However, true neutral can be a dangerous alignment when it represents apathy, indifference, and a lack of conviction.


Race:
Dwarves are known for their skill in warfare, their ability to withstand physical and magical punishment, their hard work, and their capacity for drinking ale. Dwarves are slow to jest and suspicious of strangers, but they are generous to those who earn their trust. They stand just 4 to 4.5 feet tall, but are broad and compactly built, almost as wide as they are tall. Dwarven men value their beards highly.


Class:
Sorcerers are arcane spellcasters who manipulate magic energy with imagination and talent rather than studious discipline. They have no books, no mentors, no theories just raw power that they direct at will. Sorcerers know fewer spells than wizards do and acquire them more slowly, but they can cast individual spells more often and have no need to prepare their incantations ahead of time. Also unlike wizards, sorcerers cannot specialize in a school of magic. Since sorcerers gain their powers without undergoing the years of rigorous study that wizards go through, they have more time to learn fighting skills and are proficient with simple weapons. Charisma is very important for sorcerers; the higher their value in this ability, the higher the spell level they can cast.


Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus (e-mail)

2012, you've actually been a pretty good year for me. Granted we've had some pretty crappy moments, and we've had less money and been living hand-to-mouth and can only afford to have hot water for an hour or two every other day, but hey, I've lost weight because the internet is the second highest priority, second to the electric meter and so food was shoved down to the bottom of the list (an 11kg bag of rice for £10 goes a hell of a long way). --snicker--

Even though my accident has left me with permanent nerve damage in two of my fingers I still managed to complete NaNoWriMo, and I overcame my agoraphobia and most of my social anxiety, and I'm no longer housebound.

We're lucky in that my other half has often teased me about being a 50's housewife (dammit, I'm 32, not 60+) because I cook and clean and sew and make most of our accessories, (even the little stuff like bed-warmers, hand-warmers and things that cost under £1), and I recycle/upcycle just about everything, but in the end I am a good cook, and I don't have a sewing machine because we can't afford one, but I'm dammed handy with a needle and thread, and I don't watch TV, so in the quiet moments when everything else is done I pull out projects and finish them.

I've given up smoking, mostly because I realised around May that we couldn't afford for me to smoke, even though I was only smoking four (approximately) per day, so I reached the end of the pack I had and then simply didn't buy another pack and I haven't touched a cigarette since. I don't drink anyway, so that wasn't an issue...actually, the internet is my only vice. Huh. Oh, I also haven't got a sweet tooth, and so a box of tea is much more appreciated than chocolate. --laughs--

My other half joked before Christmas that I was nightmare to buy a gift for because I download everything I want to watch (because I mostly watch anime) and I download my books from free places, and I read fanfiction, so books are out unless they're poetry books, and I'm not a fan of dining out, or sparkly stuff, or perfumes (I only really like Anna Sui's 'Love', which I tend to buy at a wholesale price once a year from eBay for a fraction of the cost in the shops), or chocolates, etc... Poor dear. He ended up buying me manga.

My relationship with Tony has suffered and then improved thanks to the rollercoaster that this year has been, and I think we're both better for it. We've been together for thirteen years now, ever since I was seventeen, and so pretty soon more than half my life will have been spent with him. It's hard to imagine a life without him, and I know he's been worried about what will happen now that I'm no longer housebound. He's excited for me, but he's worried about my safety too.

Overall, 2012 was better than the year before, and I have great hopes for 2013.

Hugs,

Jasmine Holmes

xXxXx

I'm going to try and get back to writing soon. I've got definite (and bad) nerve damage in two fingers, and mild nerve damage in one, and they're finally found a painkiller that won't mess up with the medication I was already on. Yay! It makes me constantly nauseous, but hopefully that will go away after a while. The painkillers aren't at 100%, so I still have nasty pain occasionally, like when I use my right hand, but it's much better than it was before.

I'm not going to be able to churn out a 2k chapter a day, but dammit, I will be writing.

Also, the fates are laughing their bollocks off at me, because I'm getting in orders for making one-off pieces of jewellery that I am incapable of making with my hand like this without a massive amount of pain, and I have to overhaul a doll, complete with repainting and sewing and all that other fun stuff and get it completed within a fortnight.

...I've also got a temperature. --headdesk--

Hug me? Someone?

--crawls to bed--