shi_koi: (Default)
2017-07-15 10:05 pm

Importing from LJ to DW.

I've finally decided to import my stuff from LJ to DW. I've seen a lot of people do it, with pretty valid reasons, and quite frankly I haven't posted anything on LJ since 2013, even though I've read on there a whole damn lot.

Here's to the future. --raises empty glass--
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2017-07-12 04:27 pm

About You...

There are...snapshots, of things that feel unreal when I'm with you. As though the permanence of reality becomes leached away, leaving only the faded sepia tones of a warm and cherished memory, formed from moments of time that should be hidden close, away from sounds, from touches, from sharing. Selfishly hoarded as a treasure that can never be held with human hands.

Watching you in the cold early pre-dawn light, sleeping deeply, peacefully, a change from your usual nightmare-driven slumbers. I can see the passage of time as the light trails across your skin, stroking the patches of uncovered flesh with a weightless beam of light, slowly, inexorably moving as the sun deigns to rise.

Catching you mid-laugh, when you look up, glancing towards me in an effort to share your joy. That moment when our eyes meet, and the corners of your lips curl, and your eyes crinkle at the edges. The widening of your smile. The way your whole body leans towards me, eager to share the source of your happiness with me.

You, exhausted, so many times, worn down to your skin, and muscle and bone, but still taking the time to touch hands, or brush fingertips across my shoulders as you stumble up to bed. The moments when you pause to press your palm against my cheek and rest your head against mine. When you kiss my lips, cheek, head, hand, simply because I'm there.

I wish there was some way I could collect these moments, for when my memory fades. Each and every one is precious, so, so precious. They remind me of all the parts of life that are worth living for, struggling for. And you. There are so many times, so many moments when all I wanted to do was give up. Except you were there. My living treasure.

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2017-06-30 09:50 pm

Delete, delete, delete...

I've deleted most of my earlier entries. They were no longer applicable. I almost forgot I even had an account here. It seems like everyone is leaving LiveJournal and moving here instead, and I've been following the people I'm interested in over here now. It's literally been years since I've used this place. I guess maybe it's time to tidy up and maybe redecorate.

Nah. I'll redecorate later. Maybe. I'd prefer blue to green, so at some point I'll have to change it. I'm just not looking forward to messing around. --sigh--
shi_koi: (raindrops)
2013-12-31 10:54 pm
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Goodbye 2013

So we've come to the end of another year. Quite frankly, I'm shocked to have made it to the end of this year in one piece - and no, that's not hyperbole.

There've been some good times this year:

1) NaNoWriMo went well.

2) I joined a writing group and made some friends.

3) Tony and I are as strong and good together as we've ever been.

4) I've had brief moments of energy and desire to sort things out.

There've also been quite a few bad things this year. I'm not going to list them, because that would just depress me and some are not fit to be shared, but the scales for 2013 have leant themselves more towards bad than to good.

I'm glad to see the back of 2013, and I hope, pray, and beg that this upcoming year, 2014, will be better than its predecessor.

My New year resolutions for this upcoming year are:

1) Get fit.

2) Write more.

3) Sort out my life.

4) Continue letting Tony know how precious he is to me. As always.

So I wave goodbye to 2013 happily, and greet 2014 with hope.

Goodbye 2013. we didn't always see eye-to-eye, but you'll always be a part of me.

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2013-12-13 01:13 pm
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100 Things Challenge - Intro/Masterlist - Post #000

{Take the 100 Things challenge!}

I was being nosy and going through [ profile] moonofblindness's journal, when I came across her '100 Things' entries, btw, go read them, they're about her DVDs and she's brilliant at this blogging thing and describing them. I really liked the idea of this 100 things challenge, because I've been meaning to make a list of fanfic I adore and always go back to re-read, so while I would recommend them to everyone, I know that most of them won't be your cup of tea, or coffee, or hot chocolate. --laughs--

So, this 100 Things Blogging Challenge is about my 100 favourite fanfics. This is what I can promise you...

I can promise that:
  • The fanfics here will range across the spectrum of ratings, from child-friendly to extremely adult.
  • Every post will be marked with age appropriate ratings.
  • An assortment fandoms will be covered here.
  • I get obsessed easily, and you'll probably figure that out by yourself by these entries.
I cannot promise you:
  • That the subject matter in every fanfic will be to your liking.
  • That you won't come across something NSFW, or which may be triggering or upsetting.
  • That you will be interested, entertained, or happy with what I recommend.
In order to make things easier, I will be updating this post with a masterlist of all my 100 Things posts. They will be by author and by fandom. You can find them all under the cut beneath this line.

Masterlist of 100 Things Blogging Challenge posts )

I intend to have fun with this, and overall it's for me to bring together my favourite fanfics, but I hope you find something you like as well.



shi_koi: (nano2013)
2013-10-31 06:30 pm

NaNo 2013

So... NaNoWriMo starts in less than six hours. --gnaws nails-- I'm desperately waiting for it to just bloody start already, and dreading the moment NaNo officially begins.

I've been getting distracted from NaNo by everything.

For example:

* We're not moving. Things fell through. Oh hell... this means I have to unpack, doesn't it?
* I never finished the '100 Things' challenge. Oooh, but I remember reading that! I have to go re-read it again!
* Holy crap! Is that a new movie out that I've been dying to see? Or if it wasn't, it is now!
* Halloween!
* ...Christmas?

Urgh. I'm a horrible, terrible procrastinator.

shi_koi: (snow-girl)
2013-05-04 04:37 am
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Just a little fly-by posting... looks like we may be moving soon. I made a comment about not bothering to decorate this house because I hate it here and suddenly we were looking at moving houses and we've bought a moving house kit from eBay.

So far we've chosen Durham, which has got to be better than Ipswich, and it's quite like Sheffield, without, y'know, actually being Sheffield, which is somewhere I can never return to, since my whole family lives there and I'm estranged from them (at least until my dad dies, which will hopefully be soon - no, I'm not a bad person, but he is, and he really, really needs to die. Seriously.)

Anyway...Durham. It's a market town, sort of. It's rural, which we like, even though neither of us can drive, and it's chock full of interesting places to see, and loads of countryside to walk through or cycle through, and it's full of shops that have an appreciation for arts and crafts, so I might be able to get selling stuff.

I've heard that moving house can be stressful, but I've moved houses more than two dozen times in my thirty-one years, and I've found it to be quite fun and relaxing. Yeah. I know. I'm a freak. I think it's because I have no valuables other than books, of which - between my other half and I - we own nearly twelve thousand. Yup. We don't watch much tv, and other than games, we just read...and read...and read.

I have to go to bed, otherwise I'll never be able to get up in the morning. Guh. Twenty to five. --sigh--

Oh a happier note, I can type more easily now. =^_____^=



shi_koi: (snow-girl)
2013-03-04 11:39 pm
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*steals from ante_luce*

I Am A: True Neutral Dwarf Sorcerer (5th Level)

Ability Scores:







True Neutral A true neutral character does what seems to be a good idea. He doesn't feel strongly one way or the other when it comes to good vs. evil or law vs. chaos. Most true neutral characters exhibit a lack of conviction or bias rather than a commitment to neutrality. Such a character thinks of good as better than evil after all, he would rather have good neighbors and rulers than evil ones. Still, he's not personally committed to upholding good in any abstract or universal way. Some true neutral characters, on the other hand, commit themselves philosophically to neutrality. They see good, evil, law, and chaos as prejudices and dangerous extremes. They advocate the middle way of neutrality as the best, most balanced road in the long run. True neutral is the best alignment you can be because it means you act naturally, without prejudice or compulsion. However, true neutral can be a dangerous alignment when it represents apathy, indifference, and a lack of conviction.

Dwarves are known for their skill in warfare, their ability to withstand physical and magical punishment, their hard work, and their capacity for drinking ale. Dwarves are slow to jest and suspicious of strangers, but they are generous to those who earn their trust. They stand just 4 to 4.5 feet tall, but are broad and compactly built, almost as wide as they are tall. Dwarven men value their beards highly.

Sorcerers are arcane spellcasters who manipulate magic energy with imagination and talent rather than studious discipline. They have no books, no mentors, no theories just raw power that they direct at will. Sorcerers know fewer spells than wizards do and acquire them more slowly, but they can cast individual spells more often and have no need to prepare their incantations ahead of time. Also unlike wizards, sorcerers cannot specialize in a school of magic. Since sorcerers gain their powers without undergoing the years of rigorous study that wizards go through, they have more time to learn fighting skills and are proficient with simple weapons. Charisma is very important for sorcerers; the higher their value in this ability, the higher the spell level they can cast.

Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus (e-mail)

shi_koi: (snow-girl)
2013-01-07 02:05 am

No more esama at

So, esama has deleted all her stories from I know it was her choice, but it feels wrong not to have her stories up there. I wish people had been nicer to her, she's amazing.

Bloody hell, it feels like the end of an era or something equally dire.
shi_koi: (snow-girl)
2013-01-05 10:04 pm
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A perfect cuppa...

I know it's stereotypically British to adore tea, but I honestly just love it. I love coffee too, but I have a great weakness for picking a tea to suit my mood, and Earl Grey is my utmost favourite.

The thing is, I won't let my other half make the tea, because when he does it tastes terrible. He says it's because I'm so picky about how I brew it - I have different methods depending on whether I'm using a large or small teapot, or brewing a cuppa in a mug, and it changes according to the kind of tea - loose leaf, bagged, and again depending on the type of tea, as I would not brew a strong Yorkshire tea in the same way as Earl Grey, or Assam.

In general though, a bog standard tea brewed in a large mug would go as follows:

* boil kettle
* run mug under hot water
* add sugar, then add milk and stir
* add boiled water, stopping when the mug is half full
* stir to dissolve the sugar (I use brown sugar, and my other half prefers white, and I've found that the type of sugar doesn't do change much obviously different other than change the colour, the taste difference is obvious)
* drop in the teabag and leave it to steep for 30 seconds
* fill mug with boiled water
* leave to steep for 2 - 3 minutes
* then stir and press teabag gently
* when tea is desired colour, remove teabag
* top up with hot water if necessary
* stir and then drink

If brewing Earl Grey in a mug, I would allow the water to cool slightly, and use less milk, or sometimes forego it entirely, but otherwise I follow those same steps, sometimes I exchange sugar for honey, but the steps don't change, and I've found that the tea tastes perfect when I brew it like this. It may be a bit more fiddly than the way most people brew it (when in a mug and not a teapot), but it's so hard to get a decent cup of tea and it's not like it takes much time. --grumble--

...yes, this post is a random post about tea.
shi_koi: (golden-apple)
2012-12-31 11:20 pm
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Bye-Bye 2012. Hello 2013.

2012, you've actually been a pretty good year for me. Granted we've had some pretty crappy moments, and we've had less money and been living hand-to-mouth and can only afford to have hot water for an hour or two every other day, but hey, I've lost weight because the internet is the second highest priority, second to the electric meter and so food was shoved down to the bottom of the list (an 11kg bag of rice for £10 goes a hell of a long way). --snicker--

Even though my accident has left me with permanent nerve damage in two of my fingers I still managed to complete NaNoWriMo, and I overcame my agoraphobia and most of my social anxiety, and I'm no longer housebound.

We're lucky in that my other half has often teased me about being a 50's housewife (dammit, I'm 32, not 60+) because I cook and clean and sew and make most of our accessories, (even the little stuff like bed-warmers, hand-warmers and things that cost under £1), and I recycle/upcycle just about everything, but in the end I am a good cook, and I don't have a sewing machine because we can't afford one, but I'm dammed handy with a needle and thread, and I don't watch TV, so in the quiet moments when everything else is done I pull out projects and finish them.

I've given up smoking, mostly because I realised around May that we couldn't afford for me to smoke, even though I was only smoking four (approximately) per day, so I reached the end of the pack I had and then simply didn't buy another pack and I haven't touched a cigarette since. I don't drink anyway, so that wasn't an issue...actually, the internet is my only vice. Huh. Oh, I also haven't got a sweet tooth, and so a box of tea is much more appreciated than chocolate. --laughs--

My other half joked before Christmas that I was nightmare to buy a gift for because I download everything I want to watch (because I mostly watch anime) and I download my books from free places, and I read fanfiction, so books are out unless they're poetry books, and I'm not a fan of dining out, or sparkly stuff, or perfumes (I only really like Anna Sui's 'Love', which I tend to buy at a wholesale price once a year from eBay for a fraction of the cost in the shops), or chocolates, etc... Poor dear. He ended up buying me manga.

My relationship with Tony has suffered and then improved thanks to the rollercoaster that this year has been, and I think we're both better for it. We've been together for thirteen years now, ever since I was seventeen, and so pretty soon more than half my life will have been spent with him. It's hard to imagine a life without him, and I know he's been worried about what will happen now that I'm no longer housebound. He's excited for me, but he's worried about my safety too.

Overall, 2012 was better than the year before, and I have great hopes for 2013.


Jasmine Holmes

shi_koi: (nano2012)
2012-11-14 01:19 am
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NaNoWriMo 2012

Yeah yeah, I know, I'm a masochist. Even with nerve damage in my right hand I was bound and determined to complete NaNo this year. I'm not doing too badly. I'm pushing things so I can finish as soon as I can, but my current limit is about 2k per day, and it's not all that coherent.

My story is about a teenage boy who can bring things to life with a touch. When he was two he killed for the first time with his teddy bear - completely by accident, but the guy deserved it. Now in his teens, the kid, Zack, (short for Zacharias Reynard), has 'Animated' mannequins and puppets and dolls to use as his own crew to steal things and so forth - the kicker? He's actually a good kid, he's just amoral after all the shit life has heaped on him.

It's pretty weird writing this, because unlike previous years, I had no prep, hell, I didn't even think I'd be able to use my hand, so I started NaNo with an idea and nothing else.

Wish me luck in reaching the finish line, yeah?



shi_koi: (snow-girl)
2012-09-25 04:54 pm
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(no subject)

I'm going to try and get back to writing soon. I've got definite (and bad) nerve damage in two fingers, and mild nerve damage in one, and they're finally found a painkiller that won't mess up with the medication I was already on. Yay! It makes me constantly nauseous, but hopefully that will go away after a while. The painkillers aren't at 100%, so I still have nasty pain occasionally, like when I use my right hand, but it's much better than it was before.

I'm not going to be able to churn out a 2k chapter a day, but dammit, I will be writing.

Also, the fates are laughing their bollocks off at me, because I'm getting in orders for making one-off pieces of jewellery that I am incapable of making with my hand like this without a massive amount of pain, and I have to overhaul a doll, complete with repainting and sewing and all that other fun stuff and get it completed within a fortnight.

...I've also got a temperature. --headdesk--

Hug me? Someone?

--crawls to bed--
shi_koi: (Default)
2012-08-02 04:54 pm

So...broke my fingers.

Just in case anyone's noticed I haven't been posting, writing etc... It's because I fractured three fingers on my right hand. They're almost healed now, hence this typing, but I won't be updating anywhere for a bit longer.

EDIT: Been to the Doctors'. Apparently I have a nerve, or some nerves trapped in my right ring finger, so it's going to be another month before I can use my right hand to its full ability.
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2012-06-25 12:58 am

100 Things Challenge - Post #083

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Post #083

Every Judas Loved His Jesus by Croik
Fandom: Avengers / Captain America / Thor
Rating: M (Mature)

#083 - Every Judas Loved His Jesus by Croik )

shi_koi: (100-things)
2012-06-23 11:48 pm

100 Things Challenge - Post #082

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Post #082

His Favorite Sin by dreamlittleyo
Fandom: X-Men: First Class
Rating: M (Mature)

#082 - His Favorite Sin by dreamlittleyo )

shi_koi: (100-things)
2012-06-23 11:32 pm

100 Things Challenge - Post #081

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Post #081

Home 'verse by cywsaphyre
Crossover Fandoms: Avengers / Harry Potter / Thor
Rating: T (Teen-Friendly)

#081 - Home 'verse by cywsaphyre )

shi_koi: (100-things)
2012-06-23 10:09 pm

100 Things Challenge - Post #080

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Post #080

Wanderer 'verse by cywsaphyre
Crossover Fandoms: Avengers / Harry Potter / Thor
Rating: T (Teen-Friendly)

#080 - Wanderer 'verse by cywsaphyre )

shi_koi: (100-things)
2012-06-21 12:17 am

100 Things Challenge - Post #079

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Post #079

In My End Is My Beginning by Lilith Sedai
Fandom: Star Wars
Rating: M (Mature)

#079 - In My End Is My Beginning by Lilith Sedai )

shi_koi: (100-things)
2012-06-20 10:58 pm

100 Things Challenge - Post #078

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Post #078

The Kin Series by [ profile] lit_gal
Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer / Angel the Series
Rating: M (Mature)

#078 - The Kin Series by lit_gal )