Spiders are cute but annoying.

I've got a spider web in the corner of the alcove above my computer. I've left it there deliberately because it's got a very cute teensy spider living in it, and it resisted all my attempts to carefully relocate it outside, and I don't want to squish it by accident. I'm worried it's going to die because it can't eat enough. I haven't seen a moth or anything in its web for like a week.

Its web is looking droopy too. I think it's getting a bit dusty.

Its been crawling down the wall above my computer and back up every so often, so I know it's still alive, and it's silly to worry over a spider, but it seems very lonely there.

NaNo is eating my wall!

Someone on the NaNo forum mentioned using post-it notes to get their outline sorted and get their thoughts together, so that's what my other half is doing. Unfortunately, I am too verbose for that, and post-it notes are just too small for me to use, so my other half bought me two packs of card. One plain, one with mixed colous and I've been filling them with ideas and characters and sticking them up on the wall.

I have almost no wall left! I'm still a week away from NaNo, with only maybe the first 5-10 chapters vaguely planned out with only 9 characters mentioned, and already I've used up about four feet across of wall, and five feet up.

My wall has a yellow column of card labeled 'Heaven' and a pale blue column labeled 'Hell'. Pink for 'Pagan Deities and Figures', pale green for 'Tricksters + Sam' (with no Sam yet because the Tricksters and Gabriel ate my space and I'm almost down to the floor and up to the ceiling on that column), and white for 'Dean and Cas' with a small section next to them in brackets for 'Earth + Other Characters + Hunters', also white but with multi-coloured ink.

I haven't even gotten to Lucifer yet, and his column is almost gone!

The entire space is pure text! No images or anything.

--starts hyperventilating-- See, this is why I never finish anything. I start to panic and NaNo hasn't even started! --whimper--

Also, the only threesome I've been in has involved two men with me in the middle. It's going to be damned weird to write three men in bed. --bites nails-- The logistics alone! --flails-- Plus, the gay porn I like to watch sometimes when I need inspiration is very impersonal, and I really don't like to use any of that stuff for actual sex scenes.

I sometimes miss the days when I used to subscribe to the Playboy Channel and enjoy the cracky psudo-porn and giggle.

Right...what was I saying again?

Okay. I'm a major fan of bottom!Sammy. Really. I also have a hard time seeing Lucifer and Gabriel as anything other than pretty much dominant in bed. I mean, seriously? They're so used to getting exactly what they want.

I'm also getting ideas for some angry!sex and jealous!sex between Lucifer and Gabriel with Lucifer dropping the calm we've seen during SPN and growling subsonically and literally throwing Gabriel onto/against the nearest flatish surface and kissing the hell out of him...but then I stutter to a halt, because I can just as easily see Gabriel - with all his love of decadence and sex - seducing Lucifer into distraction and turning the table on him.

AND THEN...I can also see Lucifer deciding that he's not going let Gabriel outdo him and taking back control. --whimper--

At this point, I'm just about ready to roll a dice and letting that decide. Even for Lucifer, odd for Gabriel to top and get his own way.

That's a spectatularly bad idea, isn't it?



Also...SURPRISE HUG!