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Mar. 12th, 2008 11:23 pmYou see, this is how it is. I have two states.
State one - I have the attention span of a gnat.
Which is impressive really, if you stop to think about it, because that's even less than a goldfish. It's weird and awkward too, because halfway through a sentence I'll sometimes stop and wonder what it was I was trying to say in the first place.
It gets confusing, let me tell you. Not just for me either. I also tend to skip from subject to another, and before you know it we've gone from 'How's the weather?' to nekkid Cloud and Zack in a shower, which is a very simple jump if you think about it. Right? I mean weather = clouds = Cloud = light shower = nekkid Cloud and a shower = Zack-lovin' see? Simple.
Earlier I was thinking about a Stargate ficcy I was reading and it reminded me of Naruto and I wondered what he would be like if he was (secretly) friends/raised by Verdandi (from Matentai Loki: RAGNAROK) or Belldandy (Ah! My Goddess! aka OMG aka AMS). The links, tiny, and if you can guess them, extra kudos and points to you! =^_^=
It's why half the things that come out of my mouth don't make sense. It's like I've got an brand new mobo in my head with a super-old processor and the on-board sound card can't cope, so the .avi (or whatever) it's playing jumps frames. It all runs smoothly inside my head, but on the outside I have dropped frames and the sound isn't quite in sync.
State two - I become overly obsessive.
Just about the only time my attention sticks. It happens mostly when I'm playing Guild Wars, watching anime, reading fanfiction...or...usually, in bed with my other half, (even if it's just to play Hopmon on the laptop while he reads next to me), and when I'm reading my favourite magazines (usually New Scientist ::wibbles happily::).
My usual state is somewhere in-between these two, waffling back and forth. It makes things very difficult, even to myself, and I daydream and wonder off the the weirdest moments. If this wasn't bad enough, I shake like crazy for no reason sometimes, bad enough that I had to replace our plates and stuff with melamine and plastic for everyday usage, and I can't see properly because of a blood clot in the back of my right eye.
So, take the other night. I decided to do a stir-fry because my other half had been heavily hinting (blatantly and badly) that he wanted a nice pork or chicken stir-fry, and I was happily chopping away on the ingredients when I started shaking.
Okay...that just meant I had to go slow and pay attention. So, there I am, merrily chopping and cutting and peeling (I hate onions and peeling fresh ginger), when my attention starts to wander away...la-de-da-de-da...
Dangerous? Hell yeah!
So, what's my point?
I don't have one. Ha!
I have little cuts all over my hands, because of this, and it really bugs me sometimes. Well, more times than not, anyway. I have trouble having conversations with people because I can't keep my mind grounded, and when I read I sometimes find myself drifting. When I eat I have to ground myself, otherwise I forget there's food in front of me, which leads to being hungry and snacking, which really is bad and one reason why my weight is climbing.
::le sigh::
I really hate this, because I've started hundreds of fanfics, (three-hundred and sixty-one...trust me, I just went and counted them), but finished less than one handful. I start projects, get distracted and then never come back to them. I get obsessive about small stuff which isn't important, and then get ratty if I can't indulge.
Do you think banging my head on the wall might help? Maybe knock something back into place? Then again, that might have caused the trouble in the first place. ::eye-roll:: Hey, do you think maybe I was dropped on my head as a baby?
Nahhh. Can't see it happening.
State one - I have the attention span of a gnat.
Which is impressive really, if you stop to think about it, because that's even less than a goldfish. It's weird and awkward too, because halfway through a sentence I'll sometimes stop and wonder what it was I was trying to say in the first place.
It gets confusing, let me tell you. Not just for me either. I also tend to skip from subject to another, and before you know it we've gone from 'How's the weather?' to nekkid Cloud and Zack in a shower, which is a very simple jump if you think about it. Right? I mean weather = clouds = Cloud = light shower = nekkid Cloud and a shower = Zack-lovin' see? Simple.
Earlier I was thinking about a Stargate ficcy I was reading and it reminded me of Naruto and I wondered what he would be like if he was (secretly) friends/raised by Verdandi (from Matentai Loki: RAGNAROK) or Belldandy (Ah! My Goddess! aka OMG aka AMS). The links, tiny, and if you can guess them, extra kudos and points to you! =^_^=
It's why half the things that come out of my mouth don't make sense. It's like I've got an brand new mobo in my head with a super-old processor and the on-board sound card can't cope, so the .avi (or whatever) it's playing jumps frames. It all runs smoothly inside my head, but on the outside I have dropped frames and the sound isn't quite in sync.
State two - I become overly obsessive.
Just about the only time my attention sticks. It happens mostly when I'm playing Guild Wars, watching anime, reading fanfiction...or...usually, in bed with my other half, (even if it's just to play Hopmon on the laptop while he reads next to me), and when I'm reading my favourite magazines (usually New Scientist ::wibbles happily::).
My usual state is somewhere in-between these two, waffling back and forth. It makes things very difficult, even to myself, and I daydream and wonder off the the weirdest moments. If this wasn't bad enough, I shake like crazy for no reason sometimes, bad enough that I had to replace our plates and stuff with melamine and plastic for everyday usage, and I can't see properly because of a blood clot in the back of my right eye.
So, take the other night. I decided to do a stir-fry because my other half had been heavily hinting (blatantly and badly) that he wanted a nice pork or chicken stir-fry, and I was happily chopping away on the ingredients when I started shaking.
Okay...that just meant I had to go slow and pay attention. So, there I am, merrily chopping and cutting and peeling (I hate onions and peeling fresh ginger), when my attention starts to wander away...la-de-da-de-da...
Dangerous? Hell yeah!
So, what's my point?
I don't have one. Ha!
I have little cuts all over my hands, because of this, and it really bugs me sometimes. Well, more times than not, anyway. I have trouble having conversations with people because I can't keep my mind grounded, and when I read I sometimes find myself drifting. When I eat I have to ground myself, otherwise I forget there's food in front of me, which leads to being hungry and snacking, which really is bad and one reason why my weight is climbing.
::le sigh::
I really hate this, because I've started hundreds of fanfics, (three-hundred and sixty-one...trust me, I just went and counted them), but finished less than one handful. I start projects, get distracted and then never come back to them. I get obsessive about small stuff which isn't important, and then get ratty if I can't indulge.
Do you think banging my head on the wall might help? Maybe knock something back into place? Then again, that might have caused the trouble in the first place. ::eye-roll:: Hey, do you think maybe I was dropped on my head as a baby?
Nahhh. Can't see it happening.
